Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Life

Life can be hard. Live life to the fullest. 17 1/2 years ago my whole life changed. I have heard many people say that adoption changes your life and you will never be the same. I agree it does. I also truly believe that it changed mine for the better. Yes, I had to give up my dream of enlisting into the military. But, adoption gave me an amazing extended family, a wonderful birth son and many truly wonderful friends. There is nothing I would change about my life. I have had my ups and downs but I am the woman that I am because of it all. I'm making some changes in my life currently. I will always fight to better myself and for my family. 

I recently was told some news that has made me more grateful for my son and my birth son. I am truly lucky to have them. They are my miracles. I am thankful for both of them everyday. I strive to be a better person because of them. I have been diagnosed with secondary infertility. I am currently grieving this loss. It has made me realize many things. The doctor believe I should have been diagnosed 7 years ago. 

I will never claim to understand how any of my dear friends feel when it comes to their infertility. The loss is one I can never imagine. My loss is different because of my two boys. My diagnosis makes me realize how amazing you all are. How special and strong you are. You have all done something that I don't know if I could have done. You are not only raising wonderful children, but you all honor your birth parents as much as possible. I have heard you call birth mothers your heroes. I want you all to know that you are my heroes! I love you! 

2 comments:

  1. Oh no. My heart is breaking for you. <3 I love you.

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    1. Love you Brina! I'm strong enough to endure this part of my journey. I truly believe everything happens for a reason.

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